Adrian Renoir

Students of Benoit,

Any who have received injuries, or know anyone who had received injuries from the creatures may contact myself or a prefect immediately. To assure safety, apply spells that which you have learned in your Defense classes into practice. Defend yourselves, trust your survival instincts.

Be assured that the proper help will be given to those who need it. Prefects, please keep me updated. Anyone in need of assistance in your year and house?

Regards,
Adrian Renoir
Head Boy

I understand that we are going through a very rough time, but I assure you that the professors, prefects and myself are doing what we can to keep the peace. Report any accidents or anything of a bad nature directly to me and I will make certain that it shall be responded with the appropriate course of action at the soonest possible time.

Please do leave the names of those found missing during the Common Room head count, and inform me if they have been found or not. We need all your cooperation on this.

Thank you.

[Ghislain.]
It has been done. I'm trying to assess the damage this has caused the school. As soon as I have finished, I shall report to you immediately.

[Private]
I must assure that at the next task, I will be more careful in considering who would be affected by them. I admit this stunt could have been planned more thoroughly. But this was cleanly executed. No one suspects a thing.

At the next one, however, I'd be more careful.

[Private.]

I have been finding myself replaying the afternoon I had spent with Rue in his home. I can't face the fact that he was right. I do want Barrett back, I never stopped wanting him in my life. Should I do something to take him back? He was the one who had broken things off with me though. Must I force myself on someone who clearly does not want me? I've given him the power to make all the decisions. Is it time for me to take it all back?

[Larue.]

I have yet thanked you properly for the invitation you extended to me days ago. I apologize for any hostility I've shown towards you- there is no excuse for it, definitely. I hope we may get together again sometime, and I trust that all is well.

Have a good day, my friend.

[Barrett.]

I mis I hope you have found a solution to your problem. Are you staying with someone?

It's truly a great honour to be given the title of Benoit's Head Boy for the incoming year. I will not disappoint. And I would also like to congratulate those who have attained achievements at the end of the year. Let us hope that upcoming year would be more fruitful than the one that just ended.

[Private.]

I did it. I sent the kitten to school. I left the basket on his door and left after a sharp knock. I'm only hoping he would see the note and know that Gabrielle is for him. She like sleeping beside someone, I've found and she cries when she's left alone. I think she's a perfect companion for Barrett. I hope he likes her as quickly as I'd found myself endeared to the small creature.

[Private.]

I still can't forget him. Every night I waste hours looking for alleys to forget him- get myself so high I could barely function, drink myself to absolute incoherence until I pass out. I grew tired of this desperation to forget, this depression over a love I've lost for reason perhaps I have created. For not being there, for not being what he wanted. I am surprised I'm even capable of maintaining my good grades. I know I have wanted this, but now I feel unworthy of a nomination for Head Boy...

[PRIVATE.]

We slept together.

Or must I say beside each other, with his head resting gently against my shoulder, my arm wrapped loosely around his form. I barely slept though I do not feel tired- in fact, I've never felt quite as awake as I did then. It was strange to have been close to him in such a way that was more intimate than we've ever been. Considering what we have gone through together, it's almost as if we had taken steps backwards. I'm glad for it, though I'm fearing the inevitable hurt. I've told myself that I am beyond expecting him to return what affections I have, though that would not lessen the hurt, would it?

I'm glad that he's doing better. I saw him mention he's passed his classes. That makes me happy... which is- again- strange since it is rare that I feel joy in other people's triumphs. But this is Luci. He just... brings me much joy without truly trying- even though at the same time he could reduce me episodes of self-torment quite as easily.

Love is such an odd thing.

[Private thoughts]

Boyfriend. He said boyfriend. How could I have let this happen? GHad I been to absorbed with my own issues that I had missed this?

Fuck.


[Lucien.]

Why did you give me that bracelet?

PRIVATE TO SELF.

Was Ghislain... serious? Being in that meeting made everything so real, so final. I can't seem to get myself to see things in his perspective, though it is possible that I might just need time to. Is it possible for me to back down? Or will doing so put me in danger?



This green bracelet has become an eye sore. I'm afraid I must return it. He has clearly forgotten about me, and doesn't care about me. At all. It hurts so m Perhaps this bracelet was a goodbye. To be honest, I would rather not have a reminder of him at all if he wants to forget about me.


I still haven't forgotten waking up next to Ames that one morning. Did anything happen to us? I left without saying a thing, for I could barely recall anything but drinking myself to incoherence that night. Did he take care of me, even after what I had done to him? Is he waiting for me to thank him, to pay him back? Is this part of his revenge? I'm more confused than ever, but I'd be damned if I'd show it... Could he be interested in joining the cause?

PRIVATE MUSINGS.

He's claimed you, and you let him. Though I want to know why, I'd rather not ask. I've come to realize that you are my biggest mistake and I want nothing more than to forget you.

This fucking green bracelet disgusts me, and this ring, I want to watch them get carried away by the river, and along with it I hope they take away the pain lashing at my chest. But why am I just standing here and doing nothing?

PRIVATE MUSINGS.

I see them everywhere and it makes me sick. I warned the little shit. I told him to stay away, but did he listen? He doesn't fucking know who he's dealing with. I could take care of him but... that would hurt Luci. It angers me that he's with him. That he's forgotten me. That I can't do a thing about it. That he doesn't even care that what he's doing is tearing me apart...


LUCIEN.

I got your owl. What was the bracelet for?

[Private Musings.]

I had received the strangest note from Ghislain. I haven't the faintest clue as to what he is thinking. And that makes me just a little bit nervous...

[Private Musings.]

I always find myself thinking about him. I don't know why. I wonder what he does when he's not beside me, worry if he's... keeping to his promises. If he truly is trying to be better. It just pains me to think of him in that state I found him in days ago.

I just want him safe. That's all. I just wish he wants the same for himself.

PRIVATE TO SELF.

He's never going to be hurt again. I promise myself that -not on my watch at least. He'd promised he would try, and I expect him to stay true to the words he'd expelled, just as I would in the promise I'd made him. I want him to change, but love I can only do so much...

END PRIVATE.


LUCIEN.

How are you feeling? I have read up on healing spells in the library. I could come over and visit, if you're still sore. I can help...

END PRIVATE.


GHISLAIN.

I was hoping I may have a word. My mind's a bit too... cluttered. I need to unload.

END PRIVATE.

Does anyone here use a Pensieve?